Writers Block

I have been sitting in front of the computer just looking at the screen going “Come on Sarah, there must be something to write about. Just start writing and it will be fine.” Then I proceed to write two sentences and don’t like it so I scrap it and then I am back to where I started from. Writers block and I am only really one week in. Wow. That must be some form of a record right? Has this happened before to other people, that they can only really think of one thing to talk about and then lose the passion or inspiration to commit to one topic enough to write an entire post about it.

You see, this is all very new to me. I have always wanted to write, to start my own blog (and hey look, here I am. On my own blog. Writing!) or even to just write a story. I think that I have a brilliant idea but when it comes to actually sitting down and writing I get stuck and don’t think I am able to get my thoughts across in a way that actually makes sense to people other than myself, because of course I am going to know what I am talking about but what is the point if everyone else just looks at it with a puzzled expression, tilting their heads to the side and scratches it think ‘What did I just read exactly?’.

(I surely hope that this isn’t actually happening now because I am just typing out my train of thought and I may have already drifted from my original topic…oh well. That’s what keeps it kind of interesting right? At least that’s what I like to think.)

I think my problem is that I don’t get out enough. I am not exposing myself to all of the experiences that I could be experiencing and that because of this I get stuck in a very regular routine. I’m not saying that I don’t enjoy what I do everyday because I quite enjoy it, though I think I could write better if I did new things. 

What ‘new’ things should I do though? This is the main question and it is quite difficult to answer. I am already quite busy with work and so it is always difficult for me to fit things in around that, especially since I have to catch public transport everywhere (which takes up a good portion of my time as many people will understand that live in a large city and can’t drive). If anyone has any suggestions as to what I could do to try and get my creative juices flowing it would be greatly appreciated as I would really love to be able to write every week. And I guess this is one way to start the cure of writers block…to write ABOUT writers block, though I can only do it the once…darn.

That One Person…

You know the one. You meet them for the first time and that’s it, you have some form of connection and you just know from that point on that you guys will be together for a really long time. You don’t know what it is about them but something just gets to you. There is an instant spark from the moment you link eyes with each other.

I never used to believe in this sort of stuff. You know the whole love at first sight, and I still wouldn’t call this that but it is surely the next closest thing. You never imagine that you could find such a person at such a young age…though it seems I have found just that. I can remember the day as if it was yesterday (cliché I know). It probably isn’t that interesting of a story but I am going to tell you about it anyway, so here it goes:

Day 1: First I should tell you when this was, my first day at a new school. I was coming into the school at the end of grade 11 and didn’t know anyone (and to make matters worse it was a very studious private school…and lonely me came from a very relaxed public school). I didn’t know anyone expect for a friend I had made the year before at a camp but still felt quite awkward hanging around him (him being with his girlfriend of the time kind of making me a somewhat third wheel every lunch break, not exactly fun if you ask me). The day went for what seemed double the length it should have. I figured that I should just stick to keeping my head down and doing my work, I wasn’t too keen on drawing attention to myself… I mean I was already the ‘new girl’, I didn’t want to then become the ‘new girl no one wanted to associate themselves with’.

Day 2: The day carried on like the one before, slow and awkward. I still hadn’t really made friends and it was getting me down a bit. I was used to making friends easily, but for some reason I just felt out of my comforts here. The final bell rang and unfortunately for me I had a lot of math work to get done and so I headed off to the library by myself and was prepared to sit in silence for the next 40 minutes until I got picked up. Little did I know that this would be the day that I would meet him. The one who over the next few years I would grow closer and closer towards. It was now that I started to feel comfortable as the table I was sitting at slowly began to fill up with people from my grade who actually wanted to talk to me. Though I did not get much of my math work done that afternoon, I feel like I gained something more important, something so significant that I felt something hit me in the chest, a warm feeling, and it was the happiest feeling that I can remember.

He seemed really shy, but I felt that we were going to become close, and that was kind of my goal. I wanted to know more about him, what he was into and all of that jazz. I found out some pretty amazing things, like how smart he was (I mean is, because he is still incredibly smart, like Oh. My. Gosh.) the sports he was into, music that he liked and just how amazing his personality was. He is one of the most genuine people that I know, and was never afraid to just come out and say what was on his mind. I felt safe to be with him, and I could tell him everything…and I do mean everything. He would see me at my highs and even see me at my lows, and for some strange reason, I don’t know why, he still stuck around and I am glad to have called him my best friend.

The only problem with becoming such amazing friends with someone like this is, is that when one of you have to leave it damn nearly tears you in half. That would have to be one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, to say goodbye. What is worse is that this goodbye was suppose to be basically forever. I mean I would always come back and visit but I never planned on moving back to the same town, which meant our friendship could be harmed in this process and I think we both knew this which is what made goodbye so difficult.

It has been months since I have moved now and to my extreme happiness we have stayed close friends, and what is even better is that we have gotten closer then I ever thought we would. It makes me so happy, and I mean I am over run with joy to be able to wake up every morning with a message from him to say good morning and to be able to talk for hours on end each night, never running out of things to say. He is my best friend, and he is that one person that I want to have memories with for years to come. Even if things don’t work out, to know that he will still always be there for me, until the bitter end. That one person you can count on, and I have found him and I am ever so grateful for it. ❤

Cookie Clicker

Now I don’t know how many of you know about this spectacular game, and if you haven’t then I am here to tell you all about…as well as vent out my frustrations.

I discovered this game a little over a month ago and it is strangely addictive, when all you do is click on cookies. Yep, that’s right, you click. On. Cookies. How can this be addictive you ask, I am yet to figure this out. There is more to the game than first meets the eye and with it being a very new game there is always new updates being released making the game more interesting and difficult. This is both a positive and a negative I think for the game…

You see it lures me into this false sense of achievement, by allowing me to get so close to having 100% in both purchased upgrades and earned achievements. It seems every time I get close a new update occurs and more upgrades, buildings and achievements are available. This has happened just recently right after I reset the game to get a few achievements and to also gain heavenly chips. You see, you can reset your game however you keep all of your achievements. This means that you have lost all of your buildings as well as all of the upgrades. So because I have started from scratch I have to work my way back up to at least 100 buildings of each. The frustrating thing is that I know that if I didn’t restart, if I had only just waited for the latest update to be released then I would have been able to get this one final achievement much easier.

Be warned all those who read this and think that I am being a little over dramatic about the whole thing…the cookies are addictive and you will find that you can not stop. If by some chance you can, please let me know how because I have wasted so many hours on this game that I will never be able to get back…in fact I am playing it as I speak right now. If you want to try it out I will place a link below, play at your own risk.

http://orteil.dashnet.org/cookieclicker/

A Little About Myself

Hey! First I guess I should introduce myself to you all. My name is Sarah and am currently 18 years old. I may still be young but I have a lot that I want to do and experience in my life and here I hope to share those experiences with all of you as well.

People always say that these are the best years, but they are also the most stressful and confusing years. You just finish High School and are told to pick something right now that you will want to do for the rest of your life. It just isn’t that easy. You are not going to be the same person you are when you are 18 that you are going to be when you are 30 and then again when you are 40. I have already gone to university and dropped out of a course because I realised that it just isn’t what I want to do, however for me to discover this I had to move out of home to travel across the state so that I could study at the university that I really wanted to go to. Basically get thrown into being an adult and to have to defend for myself. I had a little help along the way but all the same, a very different lifestyle then I had been use to for the past 17 years.

I do not regret my decision though. Not to move out of home to a new city or the decision to move back home to study a different course. I have learnt a lot during the past 9 months. I think that I have been able to grow as a person, to learn more about the world. I actually read the newspaper now and listen to news stories about what is happening around the world and not just in my social bubble. I have made some incredible friends that I hope I will be able to stay in contact with and can visit whenever I travel back down to the city. Not only this but I have learnt to appreciate everything that I own, and the money that I earn.

I have really grown up a lot since living out of home and I think that I really needed to experience this earlier rather than later. It has prepared me for later on in life when I finally get into a serious relationship, want to start a family and even when I want to travel. I think I am more open to change, where as before I was very comfortable to stay in one place, and to not really try anything that seemed too different. I am open to new challenges and to most experiences that come my way.

I will use this page to share all of my experiences, cringe worthy or just something interesting that happens. I will also use this as a place to vent about stupid situations that happen on a day to day basis so there could be some interesting things posted. Hope you all enjoy and get a little insight on My Heaven, because I can’t think of anything more beautiful and exciting than our own lives!

Bucket List

Travel, something that I think most people aspire to do within their life. Being brought up in a family that traveled a lot within Australia I have always wanted to explore and experience new things. I have quite an extensive list of where I want to see, or even live before I die. My bucket list. I hope that I will be able to visit all of these places (though I know that it may not be possible) but I will still try non the less. So here it is:

Norway: I want to visit both Oslo and Trondheim as I have friends living there currently. I also want to be able to travel around the country and visit the beautiful scenery there including Preikestolen, which I will link a page to show you what it looks like…basically just a massive cliff but the views look beautiful!

Japan: There is so much culture in this small island and I just really want to see all of it. From the bustling capital Tokyo to many of the smaller towns like Toga. Again I have a few friends who live here and also a few friends who really love the country.

Ireland: As I have quite a strong Irish heritage, I would really love to go over and embrace everything that it has to offer. I would especially love to go over when it snows (as I have NEVER seen snow). Our ancestors also had a castle in Ireland which we can now get tours through that I would love to see…just knowing that a hundred or so years ago my ancestors used to live in the same place that I will be standing in would just be extraordinary.

England/Scotland: Not only having family that live in England I also want to travel here to see all of its history. To visit Stonehenge and Hadrian’s Wall. After briefly studying the medieval period of Britain through High School it has really made me so curious into learning more about the time and how/why these things happened. I have always wanted to visit, but now I am much more enthused and would even consider living over in this area for however long I could, whether that is 6 months or a couple of years. I think it would be an amazing experience to just embrace another culture though it is similar to where I already live in Australia.

America: I want to travel here for very different reasons I think that any other place on my list. I don’t want to necessarily go over to see the scenery but more so the cities and to experience the different American cultures. Travel from the higher class West Side’s New York. To go to a Broadway Show and to experience Time Square at night. To even be there for New Year’s and to watch the ball drop. To then experience life in Texas, to travel through Austin and Houston. And then all the way over on the East Coast in Los Angles and San Francisco, to go on the Golden Gate Bridge. To see a proper Baseball game would be amazing as it is my favourite sport, and unfortunately not very big over here in Australia. I then just want to make lots of stops throughout the country in the different states. Go to Philadelphia and Washington DC, visit the Smithsonian and physically see the White House (from a distance…or maybe even get a tour). There is just so much that I would like to see and do, and will probably need to go over a couple of times so that I will be able to see and do all of these things.

Canada: I am really just drawn to Canada. I don’t really have any specific reasons to visit other than to just embrace their culture and to experience new things. I would be more interested into visiting national parks, seeing animals that we don’t have here in Australia in the wild. To see the Northern Lights would be spectacular to see though, it is definitely something I would love to see before I die. I have spoken to many people who have moved over to Australia from Canada and they have all said wonderful things about how beautiful the country is. I would, if I could, live over in Canada. As I wish to study Science majoring in Zoology, Canada has a brilliant program for zoology in many universities across the country.

Peru: The main thing that I would love to see in Peru would have to be Machu Picchu. Just to be able to experience Ancient South American History first hand would be an unbelievable feeling. Also because you have to trek through the mountains to reach Machu Picchu itself, it would be much more rewarding than just flying to a city and seeing something that way.

Brazil: I would really love to go to Rio, and would have been able to go earlier this year if I had enough money to go. To be able to see Christ the Redeemer would be an incredible experience and I really hope I will be able to travel here one day as I don’t want to regret not being able to go this year. The culture in Brazil is also a lot more vibrant I believe, more festival-y and I would love to be submerged into all of this. I think that everyone should be able to experience it at least once.

New Zealand: A place very close to home and will probably be one of the first places that I travel to, purely for financial reasons. I don’t actually know too much about New Zealand though I would like to know more. Experience the Maori culture and to go and visit all of the natural wonders including the hot springs. I would also like to go and get some ski lessons up in the mountains and maybe even a helicopter ride around them. Would be a great experience (as everything seems to be in my eyes) and I would be able to see some amazing and beautiful things the entire time I am over there.

These are just a few of the different places that I want to visit and I am sure that this list will grow and grow as I grow older and experience new things. Be exposed to new things. Honestly, I really can’t wait and hope that my bucket list grows considerably.

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Welcome!

Min Himmelen: My Heaven.

A place to share my thoughts, stories and travel ideas through to social issues that are happening currently around the world. This is my way to share my perspective of what ‘my heaven’ is. I hope that this blog will give a bit of humor to the day, some hints and tips as well as a place to think outside of our everyday lives.

Enjoy!